Tuesday, March 31, 2020

A Lot Going On - March 31, 2020

Opening up Blogger tonight was a pretty big surprise!!! Google has updated the blog editor to their Material Design and some of the issues I have had with their Photo app to Blogger problems seem to be solved. Which is very nice. However, it was a bit of a shock to see it when I first opened it to do my blog post tonight. 

That was a nasty little snow that we had overnight and like most Spring snows, it is that heavy stuff that my Grandfather always called heart attack snow shoveling snow. 

Walking Bennie was a bit of an adventure with the icy build-up on the road, but we got it done.

This morning we made a quick trip to Sam's Club during their elder hours and were pleasantly surprised by the lower numbers and how much stock was actually in the store. The other thing was how focused everyone was on getting what needed and getting to hell out of the store as soon as possible. There was very little talk, quite a few people are starting to wear masks and some kind of hand covering. That is what we did, we prepared a list of the things that we really needed prior to going and just got those things, although the TP was still out. Some other stuff they didn't have what we usually get, but they had alternatives, so we just substituted, did the self-checkout and went straight home. 

I ended up snow scooping the entire driveway, using a snowblower this time of year is a bad idea. So manually scooping the drive was the order of the day, which was not a lot of fun, but at the same time, it was kind of cathartic due to the repetitive nature of pushing snow with the snow scoop and then walking back to do it again. It was just something that needed to be done and by the end of the day, the driveway was completely clear of snow. Which was very nice.

However, once I got that done, I was pretty well tuckered out. While I am in pretty good shape for running and general yard work. Manually scooping a 236-foot driveway is still pretty tough work.

I waited until later in the day to run and decided to go down to Pepin and back. It was a nothing special run other than getting it done and getting some dirty look from a family that I have never seen before in all the years I have been running down there. 

Most everyone is pretty friendly, but these people were downright hostile and glared at me from the other side of the road the first time and then the second time he purposely kept looking at his phone while she glared at me. Oh well, strange times make people act strangely, but this was the first time I have encountered this level of strangeness. I purposely ran very wide of them and said hello and smiled both times.  Oh well, just the way things are going to be for a while.

When I got back my legs just felt like they had been beaten up and this is the second run in a row that they have felt this way. I have a feeling that the Bondi 5's at over three years old seem to have lost something and that I need to end the experiment I have had with them before my legs start to complain even more. 

So they will head out to the back of the garage and I will alternate in my Propels with my GlideRides for a while. It is too bad because I was running well in the Bondi 5s, but if my legs bother me that much after a few 4-6 mile runs then it is not worth running in them now.

All-in-all a pretty good day and another day closer to warmer weather and getting to the other side of Covid-19 and all the changes that it is and will bring to our lives. Regardless of what some people say or even think it has and will bring change, it is now more what those changes will be. 

The Good? The Bad? The WTFO were they thinking? This post was written for and first appeared on One Foot In Reality.

Monday, March 30, 2020

I Got My Run In - RunLog 3-30-2020

I got my run in.

4.0 Miles

This is kind of weather that I would really have preferred the gym and the treadmill.

If I sound a little disgusted and tired...I am.

Okay, now that that whining is out of the way, let's talk about my run today.

It snowed overnight and has snowed, rained, dropped ice pellets and snowed again all day like it is doing right now. Which kind of sucks on March 30th, but is not unheard of, but the good news is that the accumulation has stayed right around an inch or two.

So, in other words, it is not snowmageddon or anything like that.

It is simply a wet, nasty spring snow that we get most years in late March or early April.

For some reason or other, today the snow is just putting me in a foul mood and even getting outside to run in it wasn't all that pleasant or mood-enhancing. Especially, since I ran in shorts and just a long sleeve t-shirt for the past couple of days, which is probably why I am feeling like I am. I am ready for sunshine, warm temperatures, and signs that Winter is truly over. Unfortunately, this week is going to be cloudy and nasty for most of it.

This was one of those runs where you just get out the door, do what you need to do and get back inside.

The first mile was slow as I learned where the slippery patches were and figured out how wet my feet were going to get (they got soaked). The temp was right at 32*F (yes, that is freezing), so some of the roads felt a bit greasy and some of the puddles had a skim of ice on the sides, so I didn't bother consciously attempting to pick up the pace much even after the first mile.

1 - 9:45
2 - 9:20
3 - 9:08
4 - 9:14

Although it seems that I did naturally pick up the pace without realizing it. Not a lot that is for sure. The good thing is that I stayed upright during the whole run and got in 4.0 miles that I was seriously considering not doing. In another time this would have definitely been a treadmill day at Planet Fitness but with things as they are, it is just another run outside all bundled up.

I won't say it was a great run or any other lies like that, but it was a run and it is done. Looking at things from a different perspective. I am thankful that I am still able to get out the door and run, especially when so many are not as lucky.

Yeah, when I look at it that way, even with all the whining, it was a good run. I finished it. Even if I couldn't see a damn thing towards the end through my glasses. :-)

This post was written for and first appeared on One Foot In Reality.

Sunday, March 29, 2020

Week in Review - 3-29-2020

The Good?

Finding the good this week was pretty hard, but there were a few bright spots.

Yes, the Covid-19 virus is here and doing its thing, but it is how you and I react to the problems that it is causing for us all that makes the difference.

We are lucky, that we live in a more rural area than most. There are fewer people, businesses, traffic around us and while it is a pain having to stay at or close to home most of the time, we can still get out to walk, run, do yard work and have a little space to ourselves when we need it.

While I do whine about things like the weather, how the virus is changing our lives and all that stuff, when I stop and look at things, it has not affected us nearly to the extent that it has for those living in a more urban or metro area - yet. Besides we are both pretty introverted and were not part of any social scene so being at home and around one another a lot is not a novel experience for us. Yes, I used that word on purpose.

My youngest daughter out in Minnesota and her family are doing better, I text with her most days and find out how they are doing in the midst of Stay at Home Orders, how the homeschooling experiment is going and such, all with four kiddos and a dog. So far they are surviving and looking forward to a very important date in their lives on April 30th. So that is good news.

Around the house

We are doing yard work like raking around the snow that is still present and some other minor projects have started. I even mowed the sunflower seed shells today (vacuumed them up with a bagger mower), that are under the birdfeeder (squirrel feeder) each Spring after a long Winter and got two bags full.

Yes, it is March 29th and it is snowing outside

After talking things over, we decided to go ahead and get a digital subscription to the Central Maine Newspaper. It is another trip out of the house a couple of times a week and at this point, we just don't want to leave the house to go down to Annie's Variety and we do like to read the local news. For the price, we get unlimited digital access and a real Sunday newspaper delivered. I will miss going into Annie's to get it, but at the same time, it is one less reason to leave the house.

Another thing along those same lines is we are going to have Riverside Disposal pickup our trash for the foreseeable future. It is a bit pricey for up to five bags of trash a month, but not as bad as I expected. Now it will get picked up every Monday, but in the overall scheme of things, it was something we were thinking about doing anyway - why not do it now?  Having the trash picked up will make my life a bit easier, well at least after the first pickup is done. We have always recycled everything as much as possible (we will not anymore) and it has been a few weeks since my last trip to the transfer station, so there is more stuff than usual to be all tossed into the bags for pickup.

I am also starting to clean out the garage and will be pulling out some of the stuff that is in there and deciding what to keep and what needs to go away. This will be a long-term project I have a sneaking suspicion.

Finally, the Rhubarb that never seems to grow in our yard, may have finally found a happy spot. The sprouts that are starting to come out of the ground look much healthier than it has in past years.


I am still running between 4.0 and 6.0 miles most days and the left hamstring is continuing to ever so slowly get better. It is now more of tightness in the hamstring than any discomfort. So all of this not getting to the gym and running harder than I should on the treadmill (which I did too often), has had some benefit, beyond getting plenty of fresh air.

One good thing is that the Hoka Bondi 5s that I got back in October 2017 and have finally figured out a way to run in them without the shoes bothering my right foot like they did. As long as I wear my little toe spacer, I don't have huge problems with the shoes.

Which is nice because I have always liked the Bondi 5s except for how they didn't work with my right foot in the past. This also means that I have a pair of shoes that I can rotate comfortably with my ASICS GlideRide to have them last a bit longer into the Spring.

My ASICS GlideRides are now over 100 miles and I did a review of them this week. I was just too brain-dead to write my usual 50-mile review of a pair of running shoes. Gee nothing is going on, so I can't understand how that could happen.

I am purposely keeping my mileage between 3.0 to 6.0 miles most days and taking a day off here and there when I am feeling tired or have to start up the old snowblower. I do not want to become too fatigued and have my immune system lowered at this time for much of any reason.

We are eating fairly healthy, although every so often the need for comfort food overpowers the need to eat healthily. Cinnamon Pop-Tarts and chips have been my comfort foods lately.

 The Bad

SD2's dog Hunter passed away this week and we all will miss him. He was a 15+-year-old beagle, who had been declining in health for a while. However, at the same time anytime a member of the family passes it does hurt and yes, we consider our critters as members of our family.

We had a March snowstorm that left 6-8" of the white shite on the ground early in the week. No, it didn't stay around, but it still was a pain-in-the-butt to move around after it finished snowing.

On the flip side, not being able to go to the gym means running means we are running outside in all kinds of weather, which is not always what I would prefer to do. As I get older, I find that I am also getting wimpier about running in all conditions. Can I do it, sure? The thing is I no longer want to and would have preferred the treadmill on more than a few of the days that I got to run outside this week. Oh well, it is more me whining than actually something to complain about, after all, I am still getting to run and exercise. :-) There are pros and cons to the gym and the treadmill it seems.

I attempted to maintain a Pandemic Log, to keep track of how I am feeling and also get some of my thoughts out of my head. However, the more I wrote, the more I felt that I had to stay informed about what was going on with the pandemic. Which was not a good thing. After a few days of staying on top of the news more than usual, I decided that it was not a great idea and backed-off to give myself some breathing room from events that I can't control. I may go back to it again this next week, but I don't feel the pressure to keep current on all facets of the pandemic, I am just going to focus on how we are managing and getting my thoughts out of my head.

Although I still read a little more than I should about what is going on, I have limited myself to watching the evening local or national news and if Governor Mills has a press conference, I do attempt to watch what she has to say which usually seems to be more informative, on topic and encouraging than the Federal government briefings. This limiting of the news cycle has improved how I am dealing with all this stuff a lot better.

 The WTFO were they thinking?

1. I have stopped watching the President's press conferences every day, they were too depressing, so much negativity and were becoming too much like a campaign rally to say how great he is doing.  Unfortunately, when you listen to the lies, grandstanding, ass-kissing, and rhetoric that have abounded in them it was simply something that I no longer needed to watch.

While his administration has done some good things (I do give Dr. Fauci a lot of credit), it still takes no responsibility for anything that is not good, which really does rub me the wrong way. They have made too many mistakes to not accept responsibility for them and being a glory hound is not what we need at this point and time.

I believe that Americans need and can handle the truth about what is actually happening and the focus we will need to get through this crisis.

The President and his administration are providing conflicting and confusing information about what they are doing, and worrying about his TV ratings, at a time when I tend to believe there are more important things going on.

You know - a pandemic that has the potential to kill a very large number of our fellow Americans and possibly some or many friends and/or relatives. Minimizing the seriousness of the pandemic did not work, the dying has started and is likely to get worse, much worse.

Instead of building up hope and bringing us together during this pandemic, he is continuing to spout us vs them rhetoric and if anything the tone is becoming even more divisive as the pandemic gets worse in our Country. As shown by the signing photo of the relief bill that was just passed by Republicans, Democrats, and Independents - look who was present for it.

This pandemic is not about Republican versus Democrat or anything else that tends to divide us, it is about Americans coming together to simply get to the other side of it. It is then that we can start to pick up the pieces and get out lives back. I think that we all know that it will not happen overnight and that it will not be the same world that we lived in just a month ago when this is over.

2. The Congress critter from Kentucky that forced the House to have a quorum to vote on the Relief Bill was stupid and dangerous to our leadership. How many other Congress critters will get sick as a result of his grandstanding? Hell, even the President called him out on his stoopidity, so it had to be really stoopid.

3. I know that people are escaping from large urban areas and coming to areas with less population or where they might have second homes or camps. While I am not crazy about people coming from areas with a high number of Covid-19 cases and especially them coming to my area.

At the same time, I can understand why they are doing so and I would probably do the same thing if I was in their shoes. They want to keep themselves and their families safe and possibly have access to medical care if they do get sick because the urban medical systems look like they will be overwhelmed at some point in the near future. Especially, since it seems that so many people of all ages are ignoring them and attempting to live a normal life at this time when normal life is not possible.

However, some of the actions being taken by local and state governments to identify and publicize this influx of those from away may result in violence against those people from the residents where they are hunkering down. It is an unfortunate reality that as times get tougher, people will do stupid things and violence is often the result.

It could get ugly in a few areas because of this issue.

The reality is that

We cannot control what the virus, governments or even other people are going to do or say. All we can do is control what we do each day and live our lives the best we can in these uncertain times. Stay home as much as you can, maintain physical distancing, wash our hands, use technology to stay in touch with those that you love and most of all...

Be kind, be aware and be safe.

 This post was written for and first appeared on One Foot In Reality.

Saturday, March 28, 2020

A Nice Day for an Easy 10K - RunLog 3-28-2020

This morning I got to wear shorts, with just a short sleeve tech t-shirt and a long-sleeve tech shirt. Although the first couple of miles that light winter hat and running gloves were nice when running back against that north wind. After that, I deposited the gloves on the side of the road by the house and took the hat off at 5.0 miles. It was just kind of nice to not bundle up to get out of the house for a run.

The sun was out and temps were in the mid '40s - I really wish that I could have run into Augusta this morning, it would have been just about perfect. Instead, I got to do laps out in front of the house. While I might whine a little bit, I am not complaining. At least I am outside running and getting lots of fresh air and not having to see too many people out and about. Although with the nicer weather, more people are getting outside up on our little hill.

I didn't bother to look at my watch when it beeped the mile splits and just ran according to how I was feeling. The multiple turns do slow you down a little, but at this point, it is not about speed it is all about doing the work, keeping myself in shape/healthy and enjoying my running. Which I did today.


  • 1 - 9:18
  • 2 - 9:07
  • 3 - 9:12
  • 4 - 8:56
  • 5 - 8:55
  • 6 - 8:32
  • .2 - 8:10

Nothing overly thrilling or hard, just comfortable running.

Although while doing my cool-down walk around the circle, I have to admit that it was kind of cool when the neighbor's Boston Terrier came out and gave my legs a quick bath. We talked for a while and they seemed to be in good spirits, but the dog didn't want to go back and I had to push it away so it would go home. I don't think they would have been too appreciative of me wandering off with the dog.

I did run in the Bondi 5s and they did just fine. I might even attempt to run without the little toe spreader on my right foot next time to see how they do.

 This post was written for and first appeared on One Foot In Reality.

Asics GlideRide - 100 Mile Review

I know that a running shoe review is pretty low on the priorities of things to do or read with everything that is going with the Covid-19 pandemic. However, I need to get my head out of that quagmire for a little while and figured that writing this blog post would be the best way for me to think about something else.

I started writing this review back at 50 miles. Unfortunately, I haven't had the brain-power or motivation to sit back down and finish it up. So if you would like to take a quick breather away from the problems of the day, you can read my thoughts on the ASICS GlideRides.

My true to size - size 8.0 came in at sub 10 ounces, which surprised me since they were listed as almost an ounce heavier in most advertisements.

These are not super-lightweight super shoes that everyone is drooling over lately. From my point of view, they are the basic daily trainers that you put on, forget about and do most of your trial of miles in. Which right now is exactly what I wanted and need.

I just went over 100 miles in the GlideRides. Most of the runs have been easy with a few faster miles thrown in here or there. Due to the pandemic and a balky hamstring, I am focusing on primarily easy running and keeping everything between 3-6 miles most days. Since it seems that I am in one of the higher risk age groups I am heeding the advice from people a lot smarter than I am to not over-stress myself and let my immune system drop temporarily after a hard training session.

Yes, believe it or not, I am being prudent about my training for a change.


Cost - $150 Retail and the best price I saw when I was shopping for theses was $149.99, so they are expensive if you can find them. ASICS has not discounted them and they are getting harder to find in the colorways I want.

Initially, the rocker in the forefoot in the GlideRide was disconcerting when walking or even that first mile or so when I was running in them. If I had based my opinion on a try-on in a store or that first out of the box fitting, I probably would not have gotten them. They feel that different from most other running shoes I have run in. There is a bit of an initial adjustment to running in GlideRides compared to other shoes in my rotation due to the front rocker.

I won't say that they are a quiet shoe either, there is a lot of rubber on the outsole and they are very stiff. Due to those things, I hear my footsteps more than I do in some other shoes in my rotation, i.e. Beacon, Vomero 14, Propel, etc. Thankfully, the GlideRides despite being very stiff, they do not have the slappiness that most ASICS models or some other brands have due to the lack of a beveled heel. The heel-to-toe transitions of the GlideRides are smooth and natural feeling - once you get used to how this shoe works underfoot. 

My biggest gripe with the GlideRides was very minor and probably more my problem than the shoes. The laces. I hate the laces of my shoes being too long (the stock laces on for GlideRides were) and when they are the same or similar color as the upper's primary color.

I prefer to have my laces contrast the shoe color to make them pop a little. I know a cosmetic thing, but my shoes, my choice.

Also, I noticed with the stock laces and lacing pattern the top of my foot was bothering a little after 3-4 miles and the bottoms of my forefoot was very uncomfortable. So I changed out the shoes to a pair of elastic laces and thought it would take care of the issue - it did not. This went on for a few runs with the elastic laces and since I had fewer issues with the stock laces, I figured it was something to do with the lacing pattern.

When I got looking closer at the lace holes the third or fourth pair down from the top (depending on whether you count the heel lock holes or not) is very close to the adjoining holes and goes a bit deeper into the upper than the others. I decided to change out the elastic laces back to a different set of laces (I have a whole box of extra laces just for this purpose) and skip that row on both feet.

What a difference just skipping that set of lace holes made on the comfort of the shoes. While I haven't had a super long run yet (the hamstring is still not quite ready and with all the Covid-19 stuff, I will wait a while on doing longer runs), the issues I was having with the top and bottom of my forefoot went away completely. It is sometimes amazing how a small change to the lacing on a pair of shoes will change how they feel on your feet.

Now that I have that issue figured out, they are doing everything that I want from a pair of daily trainers.


On the advice of a friend, I got the GlideRides in a true-to-size, size 8.0, it was great advice and was the correct choice to go with for my first pair to be bought by mail-order from Running Warehouse.
They fit nicely and do not bother my right foot's Tailor's Bunionette.

The upper did stretch a little to make them more comfortable by the time they got around the 30-mile mark, but at the same time I would have liked just a skooch more room in the toe box, so if I decide to buy another pair, I will check out the size 8.5 to see if it feels a little more dialed in for me. I prefer what other runners usually call a little sloppy in the forefoot.

My heel fit is perfect. No slipping or sliding around and when I put them on I get that ASICS thunk when putting my heel into the shoe. That is one thing I have never had an issue with ASICS shoes is the fit for me of their heel areas. I feel locked in, comfortable and ready to go.

Even the ankle wells are low enough that they do not bother, which is something that I have a LOT of issues with other brands, looking at you New Balance, Adidas, Skechers, Reebok, and some others.

The GlideRides are a comfortable shoe to run in for me, especially once I got used to the steep rocker in the forefoot. Which for me was an easy transition, for others I have read that it was not a quite as quick or positive experience and a prime reason why some do not like them. Also if I want to pick up the pace, they do not get in my way, but at 9.6 ounces the GlideRides would not be my choice to run a 5K race in. Although I might use them for longer races because of their efficiency and comfort.

Personally, I like the ride of the GlideRide quite a bit, they are not as soft as my Vomero 14s or Propels, which I am learning is probably a positive thing for the way that I run. That is not saying that the GlideRides are super firm because they are not, it is more they are the right softness/firmness for me and provide enough guidance to help me continue to run comfortably when my form starts to deteriorate when I am getting tired towards the end of a run. A Goldilocks kind of firmness.

The wear on the outsole is minimal for 100 miles and while it seems like it would be a decent multi-grip outsole, in wet snow, slush, light mud or dirt road slime, they really are not all that great. The lugs are not deep enough and too close together. However on wet roads, dry dirt roads and pavement the outsole works just fine.

The reality is that

I like a lot of things about the ASICS GlideRides and usually, it is around the 100-mile mark that I really figure out if I want to keep a pair of shoes in the rotation or not. They are still plugging along nicely and I really don't have any major concerns or complaints about the GlideRides.

Unfortunately, the price of $150 retail is pretty steep for the GlideRide and the price tag is at the very top of what I am willing to spend on a pair of running shoes.

While I have a feeling that the GlideRides will prove to be worth the investment, at the same time right now discretionary spending on higher-priced items is not something that I am going to be doing a lot of for quite a while. This means that when this pair of GlideRides are worn out at around 400 miles (more than likely), I will probably be getting or going back to using something else.

Time will tell if another pair of GlideRides get into my rotation, but it will not be because I don't like the shoes, because I do like them a lot after a 100 miles in them. It will be all about the cost factor and it will be this way with many of the other similarly priced super shoes that are coming out in the next few months. I don't believe that I will be alone in thinking this way.

Which is too bad, but it is just the way things are going to be for a while, especially since the GlideRidess what I have been looking for in a pair of daily trainers:

They are comfortable for me to run in.

This post was written for and first appeared on One Foot In Reality.

Thursday, March 26, 2020

RunLog, Pandemic Log, Meandering Thought - 3-25-2020

Yesterday was one of those days where I had trouble focusing on writing and stuff. Just a lot going on and while getting out of the house for our daily walks and then my run were pretty good, writing about things just didn't happen.

As I write this sort of combo RunLog/Pandemic Journal entry, the wife is on her way into Waterville's Hannaford to get supplies. In my mind, it is something that I should be doing not her, but she saw a report and did some more reading that showed that if men get the Covid-19 virus that we are more likely to die or have severe complications from it than women are.

It seems as though she wants to keep me around for a bit longer and put her foot down about who was going to do the shopping today. When she gets in a particular way, I don't bother trying to change things, although I disagree with the reasoning and have told her that. I would have more luck moving the big rock out in the front yard with my bare hands than I would be changing her mind. So I am sitting here, being the one that is worried about her and how much she will be exposed to others while she is out.

Although in the long run if she is exposed to Covid-19, I will be as well, because I have no plans to be anywhere but at her side through all of this. Through sickness and health, those words never rang truer to me than they do this morning.

Strange how love is sometimes, we worry about one another and are willing to put ourselves in harm's way for the other, when we believe it is the right thing to do. Oh, what is so strange about that? Is that not what love really is...being willing to do more for the one that you love and sometimes be willing to let the one you love do what they believe is correct, to protect you. It is not easy being on the other end of that belief, but at the same time...well I think you all understand.


My run yesterday was a really good run, I decided to slightly turn up the effort level for a couple of miles as I headed down to Pepin and then backed off once I hit that point. I felt good the left leg was slightly tight but not as bad as it has been. I probably could have climbed up Philbrick a little harder or faster, but I really am not attempting to push the paces very hard right now.

I do not want my immune system to be down for any length of time, so I am just working on maintaining a good fitness base of 4-6 miles a day at a steady pace. Nothing super fast or hard, but every once in awhile I throw in a quick pick-up or surge just to let the body know it still can have fun once in a while.

The GlideRides will never be a go-fast shoe, but they are very comfortable and I am looking forward to doing some longer runs in them to see how they are past my current self-imposed 6.0-mile limit. It will happen, I just have to be patient.

Pandemic Journal

I will be blunt.

He scares me more than he reassures me and his press conferences are becoming more and more like campaign rallies where very smart people are having to kowtow to his brilliance and bullshit to get things done. In all the years I was in the military and that I have followed politics there has never been this level of kiss-assing for a leader in the United States. It has gotten to the point where when he is speaking, I am starting to mute the television and when he stops I turn the sound back on. I have the close captioning on so I can still read what is being said, but damn...I do wish he would listen to the experts and provide the leadership the whole Country could rally behind.

Instead, he is going back to attacking, attacking and continuing to divide the country, which is the last thing we need. If he does a good job with the pandemic he would get re-elected. Unfortunately, from this little view back in the boondocks, all he does when he speaks is make things worse and the lies keep mounting. The Country is beginning to look to others for leadership, which is sad at a time when we DO need strong central leadership.

As the Covid-19 numbers keep growing exponentially, I do not see Easter as a great time to re-open the Country for business. Let's get to reality, work our way through this difficult time and admit that our world has changed and will not go back to being the way it was a month ago anytime soon, if ever.

I think a half a cat photo is needed to close out the post and lighten things up a bit

 This post was written for and first appeared on One Foot In Reality.

Tuesday, March 24, 2020

My Pandemic Journal - March 24, 2020

This is my personal journal regarding my thoughts during this troubled time. It is stuff I need to get out of my head and probably is not the same things that you are thinking, so if you don't want to read them that is cool if you do that is cool too. If you decide to comment please keep your comments civil and appropriate, otherwise, I just delete them without publishing.

The Good?

We are still healthy and able to get outside, use our computers, talk to those we love and pretty much live our lives reasonably like we usually do. Today I got to clean up 6-7" of snow, in what I really hope is the last gasp of the wintery white stuff for this winter.

I really hate moving this heavy wet snow around, especially since I also know that it will probably be gone in a couple of days.

They say that music can touch your soul, this one touched mine.

I was scrolling through my Facebook feed and came across this. I loved the song when it came out and this version is one that I want to remember.

 The Bad?

Hunter, my SD2's beagle passed over the Rainbow Bridge today. So it is a very sad day for all of us.

Yes, I shed my share of tears as well. Our dogs are a part of our family, plus I am actually an old softie and while they are here we treat them that way.

This something I read back in January from another blogger who lost their dog and I knew that Hunter was having his problems even back then. I had read this many other times before when others had lost their dogs and believed that it would be a fitting tribute for when Hunter went on the next part of his journey.

Will Rogers Quote: “If there are no dogs in Heaven, then when I die I want to go where they went.”

Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.
When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge. There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together. There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.
All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor. Those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by. The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.
They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent. His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.
You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.
Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together....
Author unknown (Source)
Hunter, you are now reunited with Karma and will be waiting for us on the other side of that bridge to greet us and help lead us on the next part of our journey.

 The WTFO were they thinking?

As much as I would love to believe that by Easter our Country will be able to get back to work and back to a more normal life. I have a feeling that since we have not even peaked yet in the number of new cases as yet, that the President may be too subject to wishful thinking.

I would love to believe that he is attempting to paint an optimistic picture of where he would like us to be in three weeks and it is his attempt to rally the nation. Unfortunately, the tone and words he is using do not bring a great deal of confidence in what is saying. His own experts and other experts tend to disagree with this line of thinking, many believe it is simplistic and wishful thinking. He is backtracking his statements a little after the feedback he is hearing, but...well we will see.

Personally, I believe it is dangerous and raises false hopes of a quick end to the Covid-19 pandemic amongst people in the United States of America.

Especially, for those who feel that we are overreacting to this pandemic as it is and his words will probably result in them ignoring the many States efforts to control the spread of the virus, based on the President's confidence that it will be back to business as usual in a few weeks.

Based on the things I have read/heard and saw, the next three weeks are probably going to be the peak in our Country and it could get pretty bad before we get to the other side. Unfortunately, I have a feeling that more than a few people will be crossing that Rainbow Bridge to be reunited with their pets on the other side.

I hope I am wrong and the President is correct. Time will tell us the answer.

The Reality is that

Today was a tough day in our little family, Hunter was a loved member of it and now he has crossed over to the other side, which saddens us immensely.

Hunter will be missed, of that there is no doubt.

Unfortunately, wishful thinking and bully tactics do not work with a virus, it doesn't really care what we think, who we are or if we die. Its only purpose is to infect others and to pass itself off to as many hosts as possible. That is all we are to it - a host.

While it is in Maine in limited amounts, as the Governor and her administration are warning the Covid -19 virus is here and things are going to get worse before they get better. She is not sugar coating things and is not engaged in wishful thinking. Has/is she doing everything perfectly, hell no, but there is none of the self-aggrandizement, I am doing great things and not accepting responsibility for the misteps that have and will occur. I am hearing more of a...we will get through this together message that we need to hear.

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My Pandemic Journal - 3-23-2020

This is my personal journal regarding my thoughts during this troubled time. It is stuff I need to get out of my head and probably is not the same things that you are thinking, so if you don't want to read them that is cool if you do that is cool too. If you decide to comment please keep your comments civil and appropriate, otherwise, I just delete them without publishing.

The Good? 

We are healthy and where we live the pandemic seems like a million miles away. Which does give us a false sense of security at times, but also allows us to still live more of a normal life than many people are able to do at this time.

 The Bad? 

SD2's dog Hunter is still not eating and is getting closer to crossing the rainbow bridge. We are all hoping for improvement after taking him to the Vet yesterday, but if he does not start eating soon, the decision we all dread will have to be made. Dogs do until they can't and then it is time to think about their needs, not our needs to keep them with us.

 The WTFO were they thinking? 

I purposely don't write too much about politics or other controversial subjects very often. I am one of those damned moderates who has zero party loyalty and actually looks at the issues and listens/reads/watches what the politicians are saying and doing versus what others tell me they are doing or watching sound bites which can misleading. After yesterday I had to process the President's press conference overnight before I could write my daily Pandemic journal entry for 3/24/2020.

Yesterday's daily Presidential Coronavirus news conference was painful to watch. Especially, his comments on what he might do after the 15 days are over, I gotta admit scares the shit out of me. I have to ask if he was just raising a balloon to see what the public's response would be or is he seriously thinking about letting Natural Selection decide who lives and dies while attempting to re-start the economy that is currently in recession and heading quickly towards a depression.

Especially, since there is a small part of the population that whole-heartedly seems to agree with this idea.

Scary indeed.

First, I was wondering how long Dr. Fauci would last since he upstaged and disagreed publicly with the President. Not a good thing to do generally and worse with this particular one. I have a feeling we will not be seeing very much of the good Doctor as long as he remains a government employee. I imagine that the muzzle has been put on and he is persona non grata around the Whitehouse based on some of the comments in that press conference.

I don't know why but some people seem to underestimate President Trump's choice of words, obvious lies and who they are designed for.

The President has chosen to call himself a wartime President for reasons that will become evident. He knows sacrifices will be made by the people more willingly during wartime and that there are going to be casualties. People will get sick and many will die in the war on the Coronavirus (Covid-19) and in his eyes, this has become a major economic war that will decide what his legacy and whether he will remain President in the elections to come. Therefore if some must die or be sick to salvage the economy and his Presidency that is the sacrifice this wartime President will ask of the Nation or least it seems that is the direction we are heading.

Then the question becomes:

who decides who will get medical care,
will there be party loyalty tests applied to who will be treated
of course the rich or powerful will have separate criteria for treatment
how many casualties will be acceptable
how many many will die, 1% = 660,00, will it be a million, 2 million.
and so many other questions

The projections by experts regarding the pandemic are not rosy as it is while attempting to flatten the curve and we have not even got to the top of the first wave of Covid-19 casualties. There will probably be more than one wave of casualties.

What happens to those numbers if suddenly stop what we are currently doing to flatten the curve and go to pursuing herd immunity? It might shorten the pandemic's overall length, however, there is little doubt that it will also overwhelm the American medical systems' ability to manage care for all medical problems, not just the Covid-19 virus.

As a result, more people will die, I do not believe that is in question.

Is this the best way forward during this pandemic?

The medical experts don't seem to believe that this is the best way forward, they are completely against allowing the pandemic to run its course and allow the Country to achieve herd immunity by sacrificing a certain number of our citizens, whether they be young, old or whatever.

Mother Nature is a great believer in Natural Selection and does not have any pity for the weak, the compromised, the old or no longer productive and lives by the adage that only the strong survive. Is that direction that we want to go as a society?

If it is the direction that America chooses to go, history does have several examples of what happens when we live by that philosophy. It is not always pretty and the ones who believe they would be in control were often surprised at the outcomes.

The reality is that

I know that my thoughts do not mean a rat's ass to anyone but me and maybe a few family members, but the more I read and see from the Covid-19 coverage, that is beyond the stuff that the media, social media and government filter, I and it seems many others tend to believe resuming life after the President's 15 days would result in a much higher death toll than if we continue to work on flattening the curve.

We have to decide if the cure is worse than the problem and I am going to defer to the experts who know a lot more about pandemics than I do. Dr. Fauci your voice of reason will be missed I have a feeling and your honesty was your downfall in an era of post-truth politics.

I do not underestimate President Trump's intelligence, showmanship or ability to mobilize his base, or add to it as people want nothing but going back to how things were just a month ago. However, when I hear him and others speak at these press conferences, it is more about him and stroking his ego, than what might be best for the entire Country - not just a certain demographics.

We need now is for the President to put the Country first and foremost and to lead us through this dark time by bringing us together, not tearing us further apart. If he can do that, then he will survive politically, if he continues to create winners and losers in an effort to divide us as a nation and play to his or increase his base, the pandemic will bring down his hopes for re-election.

I guess it comes down to what kind of society we choose to be in the future.

That is the question isn't it?

We do live in "interesting" times - don't we.

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Monday, March 23, 2020

Getting off the Slime and back to Tar - RunLog 3-23-2020

Winter storm tonight with between 4-8 inches of the white shite predicted overnight, yeah when it snows after Spring has sprung, I tend to call it white shite. This means that tomorrow is going to be a mess and we will see how much running is actually done.

Red Sky in the Morning Sailor Take Warning

However, today the temps were in the mid-'20s and the breeze reasonable by the time I got through walking Bennie for his long walk, although it did get down in the low teens overnight, so the first walk was a bit chilly. So I was looking forward to running down-back to the Town Office and back.

Everything started off great, I was feeling good, but when I got to the dirt, I noticed a certain sliminess underfoot. It has been a really strange year, if I have not run or walked down-back by 10:00 AM, it seems that the dirt road is on a timer and when it goes ding, the muddy slime comes out no matter what the actual temperature might be. Even when the sun isn't shining - like today.

I made it down to the lower gate and told myself this is simply being stoopid, the road is getting slimier by the minute and you want to run another 30 minutes on the goop, you really are crazy and asking for another injury.

Yeah, I turned around.

I ran back up Stevens Hill and focused really hard on not landing on my arse or having a mud facial. In a couple of spots, I may have slowed down to a slow walk and then got going again when I got past the frozen tire ruts that had sneaky slime all over them.

I am sure that I made the right decision.

Then I decided to run down to Pepin. I just cruised along, looking carefully at the yards of houses that I know have their dogs out a lot more now that they are home. Phew, no dogs on the way out to worry about. Coming back I was still pretty vigilant and while I slowed considerably coming back up Philbrick, I still kept plugging along.

Today when I went down around the Circle, the garbage man was in front and then behind, then in front, which of course made me speed up a little, especially when he got in front of me. The aroma of the back of the truck even in winter is not the most pleasant, to say the least. However, I have nothing but respect for those guys, they are doing dirty, nasty work and now possibly dangerous work for not so great wages, even though it is a time when most people are home avoiding everyone else. They still pick up the trash and do a job that has to be done. Otherwise, if garbage is not collected other crap starts to happen that we don't need.

When I finished, I realized that this was the first run in a long time that I haven't thought at all about how my left hamstring was doing. Which means I am beginning to make good progress. Now to stay out of the slime and no tempt fate by slipping and sliding and re-pulling the hamstring.

Good run.

Yeah, can you tell I am excited by that 4-8 inches of white shite we are supposed to get tonight? Oh well, we have had blizzards in April so I can't complain about a familiar foe that will go away in a few days at the end of March.

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Sunday, March 22, 2020

My Pandemic Journal - 3-22-2020

1. What was the most important thing that you did today? 2. What else did you do today?

Well, today was one of those days where the sun is shining nicely, but it still feels too damn much like winter. Yeah, on Bennie's first walk the thermometer read 13*F and with the wind chills, it was definitely in the single digits. While things warmed up over the course of the day, it never really got what I would call warm and my coat, warm hat, and mittens were welcome all day.

Unfortunately, SD2's beagle, Hunter a 15+-year-old dog is not doing well and we are in wait in see mode to see what happens. So that along with everything else going on is adding to our stress levels pretty significantly. Our dogs are a part of our family and when they are not doing well...well they are family.

Bennie and I went for a long walk down-back, which was nice, but chilly. The dirt road was mostly frozen, but the bright sunshine was bringing the frost out. Which was really noticed during my run after we got back, I thought it would still be frozen enough to run comfortably down-back. Guess what, I was wrong. By the time I got to go running, the road had turned to slime and was no fun to run through.

Other than that it was a pretty quiet day and we are now waiting until a little later in the afternoon for Bennie's last walk, it seems that the biggest surge of our neighbors out walking their dogs now is between 3 and 4, so I waited until it was almost 4 and wandered out. We didn't meet anyone, which was nice.

Unfortunately, there are still quite a few people minimizing, claiming the government is over-reacting or simply ignoring the Governor and other warnings about the seriousness of the Covid-19 pandemic. After all, we live in a fairly rural area and it certainly won't come here or if it does it is not a big deal, we will just get a little sick and then get on with our lives.

I don't bother arguing with them and I just tell them I really hope that they are correct, that we will see what happens over the next month or so and move on to other subjects or keep walking. It serves no purpose to argue with those folk, they evidently have not been listening to the same sources I have been and most likely will not listen to anything I would have to say about things anyway. So I just let it go and go about my business. However, I don't get too close - I plan on doing what the experts are recommending until I hear otherwise, it just seems prudent to me.

Which means that our daily schedule has changed and things like going down to the store to get the Sunday paper is not something that Mary wants me to do, I don't bother going into town to run and keep my travels to where I go on foot most of the time and when I see people out walking I give them a lot more than 6 feet space.

Still, it does scare me that so many people do not believe that the Covid-19 pandemic is a serious matter. We will find out serious it is over the next month or so, but with the reports coming in from around the world and starting to come in from the larger metropolitan areas, I think that many more are starting to figure out that it something to be concerned about.

Like everyone else, I want this shit to be done and over, unfortunately, I have a feeling that the worst is yet to come and the worst is not going to all that pretty if Italy is any indication of what could happen here.

I have been visited repeatedly by what I believe to be a Russian bot/troll and have decided to moderate all of my comments and today chosen to require people to use their Google sign-in to comment on the blog. I apologize ahead of time, but this particular bot/troll is pretty nasty and the spewage that it adds to our blogs is such that I don't want to give it any more publicity or attention than I have to.

So again I apologize for you having to use your Google login for commenting, but anonymous comments seem to provide easy access for a level of rudeness that I will not allow on the blog and that I have no wish to read anymore.

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A Chilly Run This Morning - RunLog 3-22-2020

Spring has Sprung, but somebody forgot to tell Mother Nature that it is supposed to be a bit warmer.

That is chilly in my world, but since going to the gym and playing on the treadmill is not an option now, it is what I get to enjoy. Actually, once I got going while it was chilly, it wasn't all that bad.

Although I do have to admit I prefer to run when it is warmer.

Bennie and I had walked over to the old cranberry bog on Blake Road earlier this morning.

So I wrongly figured with the temps being where they were that the road down-back would not be all that bad. Unfortunately, that dream didn't hold up when it came time to get out and run.

However, just as I was getting ready to run at the end of the driveway after adjusting my socks, Mary was finishing her run. So I waited to talk with her to see how she was doing and how Hunter (SD2's beagle) was. We had a lot to talk about so we went back inside instead of standing at the end of the driveway freezing. He is not doing good at all and she was pretty upset by how badly he is doing. We talked for a while and even though I really was not in the mood to go for a run I needed some space too.

By the time I got out even with the cold chill in the air, down-back was starting to get pretty slimy and I met a couple of the neighbors out walking at the bottom of the hill. We chatted at a comfortable distance for a couple of seconds and I kept moving. By this point, I really wasn't all that sure about how far I wanted to go, but I kept plugging along.

When I got down to Tiffany and on the tar thing felt better underfoot and while I didn't really speed up all that much, I just maintained a nice pace based on a very comfortable effort. When I got to Wildwood, I decided to go for the 5.0 miles that I would get if I went down to Notta Road. Things were going pretty good until I got back on the dirt road down-back. Even with temps in the low '20s and wind chills bringing things down even farther. The sunshine was bringing the frost out of the ground and the road was getting pretty slick.

By the time I got up to the tar on Philbrick, I wished that I had on a pair of trail shoes because as much as I am liking running in the Bondi 5s, the amount of slime they had to go through was not fair to them and I was having to navigate between the slime and the still-frozen tire track ridges.

This was when things were still frozen while walking Bennie
Even so, the legs didn't feel too trashed and my feet while bothering a little were feeling good enough to another mile on tar. So I did and that meant I got 30 miles for the week, which is a goal I am attempting to maintain through this pandemic for as long as I can.

It was a good, but chilly run and one I needed with the news about Hunter. He may only be a dog, but he is still a member of our family and I know that we all are worried about him. However, no matter what is happening around us, life goes on and all we can do is the best we can each day that we have.

Stay healthy my friends and enjoy the life we do have, that is what is important now.

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My Pandemic Journal - 3-21-2020

1. What was the most important thing that you did today? 2. What else did you do today?

The most important thing I did today was get up and get moving. Running is a good outlet, but when the wind is blowing and the temps are in the feel like its in the '20s being outside just is not pleasurable, to say the least. However, at least I am able to get outside, so I really can't complain all that much and will get outside every day that I can, no matter what the weather is doing.

I also noticed that I get pretty defensive about who goes in our driveway now. A strange car with Virginia plates came out of the driveway while I was finishing up a lap out front. SD2 said he had been up there and put something on the steps. It turned out to be political propaganda from Congressman wannabe Eric Brakey. Needless to say, I will not be voting for him and the Wife said that she had read in the paper where other candidates and people were complaining about him doing this stuff. He is still doing it and needs to stop. Going to people's homes and leaving campaign propaganda on their doorsteps is not a great way to influence potential constituents.

Bennie and I walked down-back before the mud turned to oozy slime and even though it was cold and windy in the afternoon, we watched a lot of the neighborhood out walking their dogs. Then at the usual time in the afternoon, we joined them. There 2 other dogs out being walked when Bennie and I went out the door, so we dwaddled behind them to let them get ahead of us. Bennie acts like a conehead around other dogs.

It turns out that one of the dogs was Hazel and that Diane was walking her. We tried to introduce them, but Bennie being Bennie got about 4 feet away from her and went into ridgeback mode and started growling and barking. He has a really bad case of small dog's disease and I just pulled him around Diane and Hazel, kind joked about it for a second went about our way. Too bad, because we have to walk by Hazel most days to get down back and it would have been nice to have them learn to get along a little better.

Hunter - SD2's 15+-year-old dog is not doing really well lately and slowly walked over to the house yesterday afternoon to get an ear rub from me. So, of course, I went out and gave both ears a good rubbing and stuff. I am hopeful that he can recover a little bit and do better for a while longer. He is a good dog, but one that has his issues.

After a nice supper, we did get to sit down and relax for a while and I even pulled up my old Neverwinter Nights game and played that for a couple of hours. I had to restart the game because I decided to play a different character, but that is part of the fun of computer RPG games you can start over and it feels different based on the character you are playing and the responses you get to make.

Overall, it was a good day and just another one to get through. Although the numbers of confirmed cases of the Covid-19 virus are increasing, the actual number of infected people I am sure is, even more, it is just that no one really knows what is going on because testing is so limited. Sometimes I wonder if the limited testing is being done on purpose by leadership to keep the numbers lower. Although it really doesn't matter in the long because we will all be exposed at some point and most of us will have the virus.

All we can hope for is that our cases are of a mild variety and do not require hospitalization, which they claim will be the case for most of us. I am not being a negative Nellie, I am just being realistic and looking at what I can control more and more to keep myself as positive about things as possible.

Here is to keeping healthy and being kind to one another.

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Saturday, March 21, 2020

WTFO Was They Thinking - RunLog 3-21-2020

Today's run was in the bright sunshine, but with the breeze out of the North and temps in the '30s, let's just say it wasn't the warmest run.

I did think about running down-back just as a change of scenery and walked with Bennie down there this morning. For the most part, it wasn't too bad, but coming back up out there, it was starting to melt a little and getting gushy, so I decided to just do laps in front of the house.

I really am not crazy about doing laps, but it is better than sitting inside doing nothing. On the first lap, a strange car was coming out of the driveway and SD2 who was walking Hunter said he had been putzing around in the yard for a few minutes and put something on the steps. When he drove by it was a car from Virginia and we had zero ideas who the driver was.

So I stopped running and went up into the yard to see what was up. It was political propaganda for a Congress critter wannabe in our area. Not really a smart thing to be leaving shit on people's steps during this kind of pandemic when the virus can be spread by doing something like that. Needless to say that I won't be voting for that candidate. Plus using out of state talent to deliver your message to a possible constituent doesn't seem the brightest move in my book.

After fuming about that for a minute or two, I got back on the road, but my motivation to run was pretty screwed up by that crap. The car was still wandering around the neighborhood when I was getting towards the top of the hill and I did manage to flag down the driver and ask him what in tarnation he was doing?

He just said he was delivering stuff as directed using his GPS to go to the houses he was supposed to. I said it was a pretty shitty time to be going to people's homes like that and leaving stuff that people would have to treat like BioHazard material. I told him to take my address off his delivery route for future reference and he drove off in a bit of a huff. I don't think he liked me all that much. Oh well, stoopid is as stoopid does and delivering campaign propaganda like that just seems an unnecessary thing in light of today's reality and how the Covid-19 virus can be transmitted to others.

Needless to say after that little meeting, I was not really all that into running and it showed on my third split time. I decided to force myself to do one more lap and called it quits.

Physically I felt fine, the GlideRides did what they were supposed to do and it was just the mental part of the run that shut me down today. Could I or should I have run another mile or two? Yeah, however that whole thing with the political propaganda just took me off my game a little. Something like this would not have been a big deal even a week ago, but now when somebody, unnecessarily invades our little piece of this little blue marble, it does tend to send my protective antennae up to the full alert. Just the way things are going to work for a while.

At least I got 4.0 miles in and continue to like the GlideRides.

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Bondi 5s Out of Retirement - 3/20/2020

Okay, so now that I have figured out how to separate out my thought about the Pandemic and my Running, which are two different things, but often happen simultaneously. I just need to separate out the serious from the mundane and go from there.

So let's talk about my run yesterday and today in this post.


Yesterday's run was a bit different because I got an old pair of running shoes out of shoe purgatory and wanted to see if I made a couple of little changes if they would work for me or not. They were the Hoka Bondi 5s, which I really liked and would have kept running in them if they hadn't bothered my right foot so much. I like my ASICS GlideRides but want another pair of shoes that I can rotate with them, just to give my legs a bit of a different feel, until the weather gets a little warmer and/or I decide that I running harder isn't going to bother my immune system enough to make any difference.

So I switched out the fairly thick insole in the Bondi 5s for a very thin one and made sure that I wore my little toe spreader before I headed out the door. As a result, the Bondi 5s were not quite as cush feeling, but at the same time, I had more room in the toe box, so that part was good.

Once I got going I remembered how much I do like running in the Bondi's, the ride and transitions are smooth and I don't feel as though I am fighting myself to run comfortably. Then again, I really have always liked the Hoka ride, my only problem has been the fit on my right foot.

The weather was pretty damp and the roads were wet, but it didn't rain, but it was still pretty breezy heading out. Going down Philbrick hill was great and I got through the first mile nicely. Even though I was running against the wind most of the way down to and into Pepin, it didn't feel as though I was working nearly as hard and without trying my cadence was a little faster and I just felt good...well until I got off the tar section and decided that I suddenly needed to visit that little blue box on the side of the road pretty badly.

Once I got that interruption out of the way I got going again and felt decent. Even going back up Philbrick didn't feel as tough as it has been lately. I did purposely pick up the pace a little once I got to the top of the hill and finished the run on a really good note.

It was probably the best run I have had since I injured my hamstring back in January. Was it only the shoes? I don't think it was just the shoes, but I gotta admit that they didn't hurt and my right foot didn't bother at all with the toe spacer in there, which is all I could ask for.

We will see how things go with more runs in the Bondi 5s. However, with that toe spacer in they were comfortable enough that I did order a pair of Hoka Clifton 6 in 8.5 ee from a running store for a decent price to put away for future needs. I just want to make sure that I have good shoes to run in when I do need them because this pandemic stuff is going to get worse before it gets better.

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My Pandemic Journal - 3-20-2020

I have finally figured out how I want to go forward with my blog for a while, I will split apart my daily journal on the Pandemic and my Running Log. I just can't reconcile the importance to me of getting my thoughts out of my head regarding the seriousness of the Pandemic and in the same blog post discuss something as mundane as my running. While they are happening during the same day, they are very different emotions and thoughts that I am capturing. I just need to separate them and it took me a while to figure that out.

Daily life has become very different for us all and this journal is just a small thing I am doing to help me get through this time in our lives. This Pandemic is not going to be over in a few weeks, I have a feeling that the time frame will be measured in months to a year before life resemble anything close to normal again.

If the experts and scientists are correct the Covid 19 virus will be coming at us in waves of various sizes until they create an effective vaccine or we reach herd immunity. So this is not going to be a quick, its done and over kind of outbreak.

The thoughts that I write down here are my own and I am doing this journal only for my own uses if you want to read them cool beans if you don't like what I say or am thinking, please skip these posts. I will probably be turning off the comments on these posts just because I don't want to deal with the bots and trolls that they will attract.

Today was one where I spent a lot of time reflecting on things going on around us, but not so much to bring me down or anything. More to decide what things I can control or the things that I can't, let go of what I can't and do the best I can going forward.

It is tough to focus on writing down my thoughts during the Covid-19 pandemic - just being honest. Due to the way things are coming at us, I have a tough time in the evenings getting my thoughts out of my head and am mentally exhausted with the efforts of simply getting through the day without lashing out at others or going off into a corner to hide for a while, hoping that all of this is nothing but a bad dream.

I know that it is not and that the reality is that this is our life for a while and that I am luckier than most, based mostly on where we live and our chosen lifestyle prior to the Covid-19 virus coming to our shores.

It is not so much that I am scared or worried about what is going on, it is more that I/we just do not know what is really happening, where the virus actually is, who has it, whether we have been exposed or even if we have already had the virus and finally have lost confidence in the Federal Government's creditability to provide the truth about Covid-19 in a coherent or supportive manner. Which sucks, because I like most other people depend on our leaders to lead and bring us together during emergencies like this.

I actually watch the news conferences, speeches, listen to what is coming out of the mouths of our leaders, not just the sound bites or what the pundits or reporters say that they said. So I am seeing what they are telling us and so far it is not what I expected from them.

If I were to say completely how I really feel about our national leadership right now, then how much am I in my own small circle undercutting the little confidence that I want to have or that others might have. So I just let the tip of my frustrations show through.

Although if yesterday's response to a question by a reporter is how the President is going to react to a question that could have been turned into a great sound bite to reassure the American people that his administration is doing everything possible to get ahead of the pandemic. Instead, he turned it into something else, which is a problem and not the answer Americans were looking for.

It will also be interesting to see how Dr. Fauci is featured during future interviews after he disagreed publicly with the President and also did the facepalm while he was talking. I wonder if he will suddenly not be a part of the official party for a while, be required to toe the party line or suddenly be unavailable to answer questions within his expertise. Which would be a mistake, because he is about the only one the stage with a great deal of creditability right now, I see the rest as water carriers and only spouting the party line.

No matter how much leadership just wants this pandemic to go away - now, unfortunately for everyone that is not how a pandemic works and most likely the worst is yet to come. The Covid-19 virus is on our shores and where it came from does not matter.

Now is the time for us to come together, use all the resources at our disposal to get through this time as best we can and do what is necessary to see that as many do survive the pandemic as possible. We can look back and point fingers when this shit is behind us.

What I do expect is leadership from those in power, not whining, divisive finger-pointing and using science to make decisions to lead us out of this dark time, not gut feelings.

Oh well, enough of the dark stuff and heavy words.

I did have one of the better runs I have had in a while

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